choke + kill hose 

invitation to newsroom tour & blah blah makan session 

3's Great FUN! 

the dull and sad feeling

sadness is impending my life.. in my dreams i cry.
i cant talk about, i cant write about it.. i am just terribly sad.
my dad is leaving me. slowly but surely. in a few years i guess.
however number of years will still not be enough for me.
i have never told him i love him. i cant say that three sacred words.
i dont know what is blocking me. blocking my heart.

every day i busy myself with work.
i try in my own small way to tell him that i love him.
i go home for dinner frequently. i ask him how he is. if he has eaten,
if he has taken his medicine, if he has gone for a walk.
i tell him that i am with him. i show him that we are with him.

yes yes yes.. no no no. i should really find out what he likes and what he wants to do
but i am unable to penetrate his heart, i am unable to connect heart to heart, soul to soul.

what should i do? i am incapable of reaching to my own father.

i remember loving him oh so much.

i am fortunate to have him.

i love him.

cleopatra

my hair is so dark i look like cleopatra now.

the photolab technician who developed my photographs erased the mole on my face. she thought it was "dirt". hahaha. the thing with the mole is that it makes me very self-conscious.
not now when im alive but i think if im lying in the coffin, i dont want people to look at my mole.
but you say if im dead it shouldnt matter. the weirdest thing is that this mole popped out just few years ago. many people say it's a good thing as it means i've got more than enought to eat, wont go hungry. like some left over on my lips where i can lick it off when im hungry is it? many ppe make fun of other ppe's mole. movie- austin power also made fun about "the mole".

you know i've been using Organics shampoo for ten years. ten years!!! my gosh. i tried using some other brands, pantene, dove, VS.. but they just dont fit the bill. i get an itchy scalp when i try switching brands... the trouble is that Organics has phased out the old formula... i dont blame them. maybe it is not justifiable to continue production if the sales is oh too little. is there one same brand, same formula that is around for one decade? maybe there is but definitely not one that im using. i went to the store and bought all the stock that is left. 22 bottles. i dont have to worry till 2007.

i know i have a problem

i have like 65 handbags:
pouches, sling bags, dinner dainty bags, working bags,
whatever -- just bags

all in good condition,,,
i wonder why i keep using the same old bag and under-utilize the rest.
firstly, i am a practical person. hence function and form is important to me.
next, i am a lazy person. i use the same black back to blend with ten of the same black top i wear to work day in and day out. can you imagine having ten of the same black blouse? so easy, no need to think in the morning. just pull one out from anywhere-- cupboard, rack, hanger. they are everywhere. all my bags have its story. they are either gifts or that i bought them for an ocassion, or i simple like them. or chinese new year.. use new bag.

so anyway, i've made a point to use most of them from now on. espacially during the weekend.

i used to have many pairs of shoes. like,,, 30 pairs i think.
now i have maybe 15.
my husband asked sternly last night when i bought 3 new pairs. he said "how many pairs of shoes do you have?"

"6" i lied.

"ok, you can have up to 20"

=)

2 by 2, stop counting, there's 22 

look at my candy collection.  

tigress  

sexy number 

little demure blackie 

and very boring clothes..  

uniform 

umbrella

you know there are just some people who don't have any sense of morality. what do you do when you are leaving an office and it is pouring cats and dogs out there and there is an umbrella sitting in the umbrella stand, obviously someone else's umbrella, a guest's, a staff's, just someone's and not yours. what do you do? use it? take it? finder's keeper? you think: "i need to get out and it's raining. i need a braully, no one's looking, receptionist too busy to notice." ok, you took the umbrella. good for you.

NEXT scene : you are leaving an office and it is drizzling out there and there is an umbrella sitting in the umbrella stand, obviously someone else's umbrella, a guest's, a staff's, just someone's and not yours. what do you do? use it? take it? finder's keeper? you think: "i need to get out and it's raining. i need a braully, no one's looking, receptionist too busy to notice." ok, you took the umbrella. good for you.

good for you my ass. if it is raining heavy, you DONT take it because the braully's owner is gonna need it and rightfully use it. if it's drizzling, you can get wet, it's no big deal.

so that's what happend to me. someone took my braully.

when i gave up waiting, about to dash off, the person returned with my braully. so it's not that she has taken. just borrowed.

whatever.

you dont borrow without asking.